II Samuel 24

I do not want sin in my life. I definitely do not want it to rule. I know that pride is the root cause of all sin and I know that you have had to break my pride time after time. I want to die to my pride.

I do not want to toot my horn or get people to exalt me. I want to love and honor you. God, I want you and I want your will in my life, whatever that may be. Do with me as you see fit. I love you. 

I woke up today thinking of how many times and how much I must embarrass you by thinking of my pride. I have wanted to build a name for myself. It has caused me to think too highly of myself. Today I die to myself. I reckon myself to be dead to self and alive to you. I ask you to work as I preach. Teach and guide me. Take over my wretched life. 

I have lived so foolishly. I have deserved every attack, and all that you have allowed to be brought against me. As I look at you and desire to change my attitude, I pray I will glorify you.

I know that serving you meant I came to serve and sacrifice and not to enjoy great and rich blessings all the time. I ask you to forgive me for what has been going on and to really have an attitude of service to you. Forgive me for my desire for success and to look good in front of others. I want to serve you and honor you, and I know that this will always cost me. Help me pay the price to be your man for real.

I Chronicles 21-22:19

I fear that I have not been watching as I prayed and Satan has deceived and hurt me and the work you desire to do in my life. I know it is all on me. I know I want to be exalted, and that is so like Satan. I want to be watchful and learn. I want to believe that I will still grow through this. I want to be so much more careful about my thoughts. 

I know that my sin of arrogance has caused my family and friends to suffer as you have punished me. Please forgive me and at least bless them.

God, how I want to know you. I want to grow closer to you every day of my life. I want to serve you with all of my heart. I want an undivided and perfect heart for you. I want to serve you with a willing mind. I want to have the strength to do your will. I want to do your will with all my heart. I love you. I look to you. You may have given me a new lease on life. Help me live life to the fullest for your honor and glory.

I fear you gave me a new lease on life and I have messed that up. It would have been better to die with Covid. 

God, I pray for peace and quietness in our lives. I have caused enough turmoil. 

Psalm 30

God, you have rescued me so many times. You have given me opportunity after opportunity, but yet I mess them all up. You have been angry with me and I deserve it. Your anger will turn soon, I pray. I pray that there will be life. I pray that the weeping can end soon and joy can come. 

Psalm 108

God, I am determined to love you and serve you no matter what happens. I will sing praise to you and give you glory because you are all I have that I can glory in, and that is enough. I will get up to praise you. When I am with your people, I will praise you. I will praise you when I am with the pagans.

Your mercy is great, and your truth is to the highest heaven. God be exalted and let the world worship you. God, I know you love me. I have Scripture telling me you do. Please rescue me. Save me and answer me. 

God, please speak in and from your holiness. I ask you to decide between your children. I belong to you, as does the entire world. God, give me victory over my enemies. God, bring me into all your promises for me.

God, please don’t throw me away. Please step in with your great angelic army and defend me. Give me help in my trouble. Men can’t and won’t help me. But you can give victory. You can come through and change all of this for your honor and glory. I want to see you tread down my enemies. I believe in you and trust you to do that. You will bring me through this. I trust you.

I love you and believe in you. Thank you, now for hearing and answering my prayer.

I will not be leaving, no matter what happens. I will serve you even if I lose it all and you never decide to restore me. Will you throw me away forever? Will you forget me? I have nowhere else to turn. You are all that I have. I could still see you do great things if you wanted., I will preach today. Will you work through me, please?

Psalm 109

God, please move and speak. Everywhere I turn, I still see the attack. They have lied, though I know I gave the enemy ample opportunity to destroy me. I loved them. I did all I could to be their friend, and now they seek to destroy me, and no one notices. God, I deserve all the punishment you give me and more. I know that you have been very lenient with me. 

God, please don’t be quiet. The mouths of the wicked and those that want to destroy me are opened. You are the God of my praise. They have spoken against me with a lying tongue, and even my friends seem to have agreed with them, or at least had doubts. They surrounded me with words of hatred. They have fought against me without a cause. I have loved them, and now they are my adversaries and only desire to destroy me. I will continue to pray and give myself to you in prayer.

They have rewarded me with evil for good and hatred for love. God, I pray you will put a wicked man to work in their life. I pray you will let Satan stand there and judge them. I pray they will be condemned and their prayers are as sin. I pray that their days will be few and that another will get their position.

Lord, I pray their children will be fatherless and their wives’ widows. I feel bad even saying these things as the psalmist did. The demons of hell are using them. I know that my battle is not with these people, but with the devil himself. God let their children be vagabonds and beg and live alone. Oh God, I can’t say this about those that are humanly attacking me, only the demons of hell that are using them.

God, let them lose all they have. Let there be no one to give them mercy, not even to their children. God cut off their children. Let their names be blotted out. I pray you will not forget what they have done. Not they or anyone in their family should be forgiven. God, I speak this in prayer but not about the people but the demons behind them. I pray you will cut them off, so no one even remembers them or all the wicked that they have done.

They never showed mercy. They persecuted the weak and needy. They have tried to destroy the broken in hearts. Let it happen to them since they love cursing. Since they dislike blessing, let them not be blessed. Since they love to dress in cursing, I pray you will let the curses go to the center of their being.

Let their cursing be all that covers them. God, do this as a reward to my enemies and them that speak evil against me. God, I repeat, I am asking you to stop the devils, bind them, and let your children get free from their influence. Wake your people up. I want no harm to come to those that are yours, just the stinking devil, and those that are his. I know this is a spiritual war.

But God, I ask you for your name’s sake to have mercy on me for good and rescue me. I am poor. They wound my heart in me. I am like the evening shadows declining. I am knocked around like a bug. My knees are weak. I am about to faint. This cancer affected my body. 

I have become a reproach to all those around me, and they shake their heads when they look at me. God, please help me. Save me according to your mercy. Show them you are at work in my life. Let them curse all they want. I just ask you for your blessings. 

Let me be happy, but I pray you will humiliate them. I pray that my enemies will be dressed in shame. I pray that confusion will be the clothes that they wear.

With my mouth, I will praise you. I will praise you in the crowds if ever given a chance. I believe you will stand beside the poor and save us from those that condemn to hell.

I reiterate I do not want any harm to come to the people that have so viciously attacked me or those that have doubted me and spoken so much about me in all of this. I want the demons of hell to know that you rule and that they can attack all they want, but you will stand with your people. 

The psalmist asks God to do things for Him. He is unashamed to ask God to work on His behalf. He knows that the reason God would do something is that of who He is. God is good. God is concerned about His reputation. God is at work because that is His character. 

The psalmist knows that God works because of His mercy. Not that he deserves God to answer at all. It is that God is merciful. He asks God to work and deliver him from his enemies because God is a God of mercy. He asks God to deliver him because he is living a life that would honor God. 

I can pray and ask God. I can’t ask selfishly. I need to be living for Him. I need to live doing something that brings honor to Him. But when I pray, He answers because He said He would. He responds because He is good and full of mercy. He answers because of who He is.

God, do such a work so that no one can deny that it is you doing the work and that your name would be great or will be greatly blessed and honored. I know that you have everything under control and that though they feel no one will be able, you can and will. God, show yourself.

I have utterly failed you. I deserve everything you have brought to pass in my life. I want to grow from it. I want to become the man you have planned. Please forgive me and continue working until I become what you desire.